Treacherous Desire

A random day, un-random thoughts, love, dreams, hopes, and a desire to runaway...

I don't know why i considered posting this one? It wont look like a piece of writing to many but heck, i don't even look like me anymore. Somethings gone wrong somewhere..terribly.

Their neglect, their abuses, their doubts, their charges
Weren’t enough…
What made me cry was your one word of care!

the background:
"haye mar jaaen ge ..hum to lut jaaen gae ..asi baaten kiya na karo...
aaj jaane ki zid na karo. tum hi socho zara kyu na rooken tumhe..jaan jaate hai jab ..uth ke jate ho tum ..tum ko apne kasam jaan-e-jaa ...baat etne mere maan lo..aaj jane ki zid na karo..."

Prove me wrong
Just another time.
Make it difficult for me to
Fathom your truth.
Lie to me.
Tell me you love me.
Let falsities engulf me.
Let your soul take refuge in mine.
And when the whole world resents me
Bring me back to life.Oh! my lover
I seek you for eternity.
Trick, Betray, Abandon me,
Just another time.

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bliss attained ?

A windy night. A girl.
The background music...

"where are you and I'm so sorry.
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always...

Don't waste your time on me
your already the voice inside my head."

and her jerk..

4Th April
Bumble street
Ziperdyland.

dear dippsy,

I wish we never reached up to today.I wish we would have let it go the first time.And now you live with remorse.I wish you didn't.For this I cannot see...

Lost for words, here I am;
but not guilty, not resentful nor sorry.I'm here not to stop you, nor do i carry any further hope.Looks like Ive reached one of those points where my insides have given up on everything that mattered the most.
I warned you, Id try to keep us alive till the end, but once my soul convinced, lets go of all the strings, theres nothing much anyone can anymore do.Not even you.
And the time has come. your very essence that clothed all my memories now begins to wither, and its strange how totally oblivious Ive become to it all.I have no tears to shed, nor a smile to uphold .All I'm left with is a palpating heart that beats even faster when i think of how much better our destines could have done.And I'm left with a vacant pair of eyes, that now have to look for a reason to smile.
Your thoughts have now been scared off...
for the better I know and nothing matters anymore.
but hasn't it all been too abrupt? looks like the end has already come.

yours truly.

And till date I think weather you even read what i write, cause even today it matters to me..alot. But if you ever happen to read this, which I'm sure of you wont (*sigh*) i just want to say
I'm sorry.
And yeah don't waste your time on me , cause your already the voice inside my head ...

the unwanted silence

I'm calling,

do you hear me cry?

Ive started pretending

I'm holding your darkest secret

your biggest lie.

My love has faded grey

didn't you see me try?

A plethora of broken dreams,

some un understood feelings,

a ripped heart that longs to fly.

You promised we'd be together,

no analysing each other

no judgemental acts this time and

then you you left.

I waited.

I await.

You never looked back..

Don't just look away like that

Speak up! Baby react. Say OK.

Scream your lungs out

or kiss my tears dry.

Anything but your causal indifference,

and that cold shoulder shrug

that serves a cold reminder,

that 'we' should have never

and can never exist.